"You Spazzing But Are You Ready Sis?"

Being anxious about our goals is always normal but we should never let others dictate to us where we should be.

So, in a previous post I opened up about being worried about not being where society, family, friends and I think I should be at 35. But at 35 am I ready to be where I believe I should be? Honest answer….hecks no! But can we ever be really ready? So what should I really be doing at 35? Getting myself prepared for what I’m praying for! Many times we pray and beseech God for stuff but guess what? He won’t give it to you if you aren’t in a place to receive it. Hmmm….so what does being in a place to receive it look like?

Am I ready to receive all I prayed for?

On January 2, 2020 (BC), before coronavirus, I sat and made a vision board, Vision 2020 was what I called it. I thought it was a nice pun. This was the first time I was making one and I was so pumped. I was pumped because I was actually making a plan to use 2020 to prepare myself for all the things I was praying for: in a nutshell a better version of me. I wrote the areas in my life that I needed to work on and I came up with this (photo below)

My 2020 Vision Board

So how’s that going? Am I ready to receive all I prayed for? Well it’s the middle of the year, in the middle of a pandemic so how do you think it’s going? I think it’s going fairly well and I use the term “well” loosely. There are days when I feel as if I’m stagnant and no progress is being made. In all honesty I am making small strides in that direction, small strides at being a better version of me. The pandemic has definitely slowed time and slowed many of the plans that I had for 2020. It has not, however, slowed my growth. Neither has it slowed me from working on a better version of me. A better version of me is needed in order to be ready for that desire and pray for.

At the end of the day we have to shed those expectations that others have of us and be comfortable with who we are and where we are.

After much introspection and retrospection I have come to realize that at 35 I am exactly where I need to be. Society, friends and family can put additional stress on us with expectations of who they believe we should be. At the end of the day we have to shed those expectations that others have of us and be comfortable with who we are and where we are. It is only then that we are able to control our anxieties and not ‘spaz’ out. We will get to a point where the expectations of others do not dictate who we are.

Have you ever felt overwhelmed by others expectations of you? Let me know in the comments below.

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